Maybe deviating away from the previous post I want to make of, but I guess I'll just state it here.
This week I got back from 3 of IDK amount of universities I applied has replied/respond to my application. though only UC Davis of the 3 rejected me, I made a thought about it. It said that 400 students applied for 20 spots in the university, which is literally only 5% acceptance rate ish, assuming all the applicants are equally good. what I have in mind is what about the higher end schools that I applied then? Stanford? MIT? Harvard? Like why do I dream of these schools to even consider me if they are also just like UC Davis? surely is not wrong to dream and apply, but the audacity of me to feel so special that these schools would consider me is what I have been questioning. Surely there are other applicants who are much better than me. Like performed more outreach program than me? Better grades than me? Stronger letter of recommendation than me for sure.
What do I say all these is because lately I have been dreaming of perhaps going back to my high school and tell them that even a not-so-great-student like me, who scored 6/40 for one of his maths test is able to climb up high into a super good school in the US, in the hopes to motivate students who were just like me to start dream big from younger age. I have started to seriously thinking of guiding the future students in my home country/Kuching to their success, and don't let them feel getting straight A* is the only way to succeed. Sure, A* is a nice grade for entering good school, but it is not the only way. I want them to not feel special and such, in a way, to tell some people like my old self that they are worth in some special subject and being good in all subject doesn't mean they are 1000% successful. I truly hope to stop the younger generations from destroying their self-esteem as confidence, I learned, is the most important key to be successful.
If there's 400 that applied to UC Davis, then what of the high grade schools that I applied to? 700? 900? 1000? Regardless, what are the odds that I am someone special in those list of students? Surely there are a crap ton of students out there who have achieved more than me, found more novel stuffs than me, or perhaps have direct relation to someone from the institution. All to say I ain't super special. Could my application really is on some stacks of ignored applicants in the office now? Perhaps awaiting for someone to take the stash and send them emails that they are rejected?
Am I a fool who always dream big but never really achieved anything? Did I really think that I could get into those schools? Why do I have hope in the first place?
Am I just a normal student who would only get into normal school and normal life?
Well... Perhaps?
