Draw your life

Sometimes I do wonder... Were we born as a blank canvas?

As we grow, the more define our picture is. The picture that you drew/colored will only be completed, once you retired or done living.

People are born a beginner to art and drawing, and different lives were given different varieties of pencil. Some were born with an adequate life, which is to at least obtain a HB pencil. A pencil that ain't too dark, nor too light. And from there one must draw a beautiful outline, before getting other pencils. Same with life. You grow up and prove yourself worthy before a company hires you. But, some people are born very lucky. And those people, who were born rich, were given the higher opportunity to succeed in life; hence given the power to utilize all shades of pencils, color pencils, charcoal pencils, etc. at early life. Some others were born much tougher. Some were born poor... which is the same as born with 8H/8B pencil... basically pencils that are too extreme. These people are the ones that have hard time to show their talent. 8H pencil could give an outline, but it's too light that people would probably not wish to spend their time analyzing the outlines. Even with the given disadvantage, someone who cares would try and give their time to analyze the "nearly impossible to depict" picture. If, the outline was good or had potential, the person who analyzed it could fund that person with darker color of shades to create a masterpiece, as well as giving the picture colors. This example is not too common, but you have certainly heard of poor people who showed their potential and ended up being rich/famous. Again, it is hard for these people with 8H pencil to show their true potential. Why? These pencils are so light, that if you try to make a very strong and visible outline, you would probably be damaging your paper. I mean, do you remember when you tried to draw something real hard but you decide to erase everything?  Do you remember that when you tried to shade/draw on the same paper, you would see visible lines of unshaded regions on the paper? That is because you made "ditch" on the paper, and what ever you do, without proper equipment, you will never be able to hide/remove that ditch, AKA wasted your opportunity to show your potential as you have ruined the canvas. That's why, it's just not ideal to use 8H for starting the outline for beginners.

How about the 8B pencils? 8B gives similar problem. If you did not draw your outlines correctly in the first place, you might run the risk of "un-erase-able shading." It's true. Do you remember drawing excessively hard on a blunt, and dark, pencil and you realize that some tiny bitty shades were extremely hard to be erased? I always have that, but not only with 8B, but all pencils ranging from 2H-8B seem to do that, with the stronger shade pencil creating a more obvious mark. I honestly tried to erase one of these shades that I made by mistake, and instead of the pencil mark gone, the paper lose its fine layer (basically I ruined my canvas/paper). If 8B and 8H could easily create mistakes, it makes sense as well that poor people are the ones that could easily get themselves into troubles, such as gang fight/blind gambling/etc. The idea that I am trying to convey here is that, the more we can show a good outline, the more people would invest in us. And our outline must be clean, no visible scratches on paper, no unwanted shades and preferably have outlines that are easy to see and not risky of errors. Same like life, higher ups only invest in people who have good skills/history.

Outlines determines your final image, but some people don't follow that rule, or some people just don't.

TBC.

Solo World

Hoi to whoever is keeping up to this blag.

Short essay for this one because i really want to sleep, but i have decided to put this here for my future self to think or observe about. 

At this lab (stem cell), there is this girl, from China. All I get from her is... challenge. What I meant is... she view life itself as a challenge, which is the exact opposite to what my view of world is. 

I stated these because these are the things that she did/said directly to me, as well as some things about her:

1) Compared 4.0 grades with me. (basically bragging her excellency). 

2) She doesn't like tutoring because she doesn't understand stupid people. 

3) She... is a perfection person. If she doesn't get her results, she WILL be VERY VERY upset of herself.

4) She is the only child.

5) She personally told me that she's a very emotionally attached person. (Needs a physical love).

6) She doesn't understand how others won't understand her logical point of view. (she treated people like how she would treat herself, literally.)

7) Have parents that always quarrel during her childhood.

8) She gives off vibe of "being better" when I told her that she is younger than me. 

What is with her?.... 

Not that I am saying negative stuffs about her, but I do feel like... this is a product of... loneliness. 

When you are the only child... you literally are the only one that represents the family. Also she is... the only child.... has she been lonely the whole entire time? But what about her competitiveness? Why does she view things as competition? True that if we slow, we lose, but... not everything got to be a competition you know?  

I'll just end it here. A very good topic to think about, since this would shed light on how I could probably understand how the "kiasu" of my high school sees the world.